whats going on

2010-08-17T23:04:00.000-07:00

8/18/2010
2.05pm
haiz...距离大考还有7天...
加油！！！
我不要再考那种刚刚好级格的分数了！！！

2010-07-17T03:09:00.001-07:00

17/7/2010
06.10pm
haiz...
got a complicated feeling right now...
只有罪假的人才能永远的生纯。。
而用真心去对待一切的人，永远都是被伤的最深的。。
haiz...complicated...what should i do??
should be the "fake" or "real" 1?
haiz...y everything everytime go worst??
i make thing worst???
y everything looks like my fault??
haiz..

2010-07-10T22:03:00.000-07:00

11/7/2010
13.05
argh!!it's sunday again...
tmr will has engineering science test again...
study hard!!!
besides that...i finally make a decision...
this type d relation...just let it be natural...
n now what i wan is just focus on my studies...
good luck!

2010-06-29T07:17:00.001-07:00

29/6/2010
10.17pm
haiz...2 days cant go to schl le..
tmr will be day 3 le...haiz haiz...
coz of eye swollen..
which cause by bacteria infection le...
damn fucking suffer now...
argh!!!

2010-06-26T03:29:00.001-07:00

26/6/2010
6.30pm...
haiz...got a complicated feeling right now...
dad is in hospital...god bless him...=(

2010-06-25T03:56:00.000-07:00

25/6/2010
07.00pm
huh,after yesterday night...
i realize that nothing is impossible...
it's true,just depends on u,urself who control how the things work...
n yesterday night i have done my assignment which suppose to be done in 6 weeks duration
but i just it in 2 nights ...hehex...is't quite unbelivable??
n somes who choose to give up...untill now even 1st page also haven done..
so it's depends on u...n sure i had secrefice my sleep time...

这让我领悟了，没有东西是不可能的。
只是看在你怎样去面对。
只要有决心，不可能，也会是可能。
加油！！！

2010-06-22T05:56:00.000-07:00

22/06/2010
09.00pm
haiz...so complicated le...
but finally i decide to give up on her d..
but this decision really need a lot of bravery..
dunoe should i give up on this or not...haiz...
can someone help me??=(

2010-06-19T22:05:00.000-07:00

20/6/2010
01.00pm
有种很负诈的心情。。
当我听到，我喜欢的人已有爱昧的对象了。。
就觉得很难受，我想我应该是对她有了超越朋友的感觉了。。
haiz,不管酱多啦，读书先啦。。感情事就随它吧！
我一定要陈功！！！

2010-06-18T09:55:00.000-07:00

19/06/2010
01.00am
huh...my favourite day in week...
Thanks God Is friday!!
nowadays so busy...
got to rush assignment
got to study hard with understanding..
n next week,there's persentation n 2 test waiting for me..
haiz...damn pressure now...
n now only i realise that this course is the hardest one in TARC..
n it's too late to change course d..
no choice i must fight untill the end...
must graduate in 2years4months time..
i must do it!!!
no more games!!
study hard n hard!!!
i must do it!!ZAX,gambateh!!!Never give up
NEVER SAY NEVER!!!good luck everybody!
I WILL FIGHT TILL FOREVER!!!

2010-06-13T01:50:00.000-07:00

13-06-2010
4.45pm
很久没update了。。
这些都是我躰会到的，就share一下。。
最近都过得很有意义,可能上了学院，又自己搬出去住了吧
从中学毕业到现在，我也领悟了不少东西
以前在家里吃喝玩乐，无忧无虑
可是搬进了宿舍，什么事都得靠自己了
现在才明白了父母的辛苦。。
所以这也是为什么我最讨厌那些四肢建全，有书不读，又不作工
只会向父母申手要钱的人了。。
我的人身又向前跨了一步了=)
很多人都会问自己，为什么我的命运会酱坏，而别人的就酱好
这都是在于自己怎么想。。“是命运改变了我，还是我改变了命运”

"是命运改变了我，还是我改变了命运。。。我现在找到了答案，我要靠我的双手来改变我的命运"
这可不是出至哪个高人的哦，是我所经历过而找到的答案。。=）

2010-03-24T12:25:00.001-07:00

haiz...gotta compliacted feeling now...
dunnoe y...haiz...

2010-03-22T11:45:00.000-07:00

22/3/2010
2.45am...
很快的，我已经18岁了。。。
要学会独立！！！
在这现实的社会身活中。
诺要活得好，就得靠自己。
5年后，我一订要陈工！！！
是我赚钱养回我的父母的时候了！！
不过，这都是五年后的事啦。。
从我踏出社会到现在，也领悟了不少东西。。
对任何人都不要仁慈。。。
要能辨别是非，才能活出色彩。。。

2010-03-21T11:49:00.001-07:00

me...

2010-03-21T01:55:00.000-07:00

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② 请传给另外十个人

③ 传阅人请在这十位被点的人的留言板上通知他，他被点咯!

④ 这当中的十位不得拒绝

⑤ 被点者请注明被谁点了在哪里接到再传给下十位

⑥ 这些被点名者，你们被点会祝福

⑦ 不可回点哦，并且愿望会实现和得到幸福

+坐上幸福热气球，开始咯+

① 绰号：zax

② 星座：人马座

③ 生日：11月30

④ 兴趣：没有咯
⑤ 血型：不知道

⑥ 最宝贵的东西：回忆

⑦ 最討厭的东西：讨厌的东西

幸福热气球：第二阶段

① 有喜欢的人吗：密秘

② 有交往吗：没有

③ 幸福吗：没有

④ 他很爱你吗：没有

⑤ 如果你有勇气最想是做什么：最想做最勇敢的事

幸福热气球：第三阶段

① 你被谁点：janice（janice)

② 他是你的谁：朋友

③ 他的个性是：长得很高

④ 他长得怎样：很高

⑤ 跟他认识多久：不懂`

⑥ 你想跟他说什么：不知道咯

⑦ 如果他变成你的情人：不会啦，她比我高了=.=

幸福热气球：第四阶段

① 最爱的音乐：都喜欢

② 最爱的季节：热的

③ 最爱的卡通：不喜欢

④ 最爱的颜色：黑，蓝

⑤ 最想去的国家：北极
⑥ 最爱的水果：我不喜欢

⑦ 最爱的饮料：没有吧

⑧ 最爱的人：这是密秘

幸福热气球：第五阶段

① 你很爱哭吗：不会

② 你很爱笑吗：还好啦
③ 你是很有信心的人吗：还好啦

④ 你想要怎样的生活：不知道
⑤ 你喜欢自己吗：还好啦

⑥ 你喜欢音乐吗：还好啦

⑦ 你喜欢体育吗：还好啦

⑧ 你喜欢跳舞吗：还好啦

⑨ 你很专情吗：还好啦

⑩ 你喜欢睡觉吗：还好啦

11.你喜欢唱歌吗：还好啦

幸福热气球：第六阶段

开始点名 :
1）

「五号跟谁谈恋爱」- x
「一号是男的还是女的」- girl
「六号人很好吗」- x
「二号很色吗」- 色！！！！！！1
「七号跟三号在一起吗」-x
「八号是单身吗」- x
「十号喜欢一号吗」- x

「五号读那间学校」- x
「六号喜欢谁」- x
「二号喜欢唱歌吗」- 喜欢
「你爱七号吗」- x
「三号住哪」- his house xD
「十号跟你告白」-x
「四号有宠物吗」- 好像没有

如果你有三个愿望，Tell me your wish :
我所要的都会成功！
我所祈求的都会实现！

2010-03-19T23:19:00.000-07:00

Publish Post hmm..ex-classmate

2010-03-19T06:30:00.000-07:00

19/03/2010
9.30pm...
huh...this few days quite busy le...
i'm looking for a best way...for me to become an engineer..
n finally,i have choosen tarcollege for my diploma course
n i think mostly i will continue my degree at utarc...
i think it will mostly take me around 5 years
to finish my bachelor degree...
hmm...so i need to work harder to brighten my future ^ ^
n my course will start on 17 may...its still about 2 months to go..
haiz...everyday stay at home,sleep,eat,sleep again...
this type of lifestyle...haiz..really bad...
i wanna get some different lifestyle...
but due to my BM no credits...so,i need to take julai paper le..
haiz haiz...but july paper was really tough...
no choice,i must study hard!!!!!
i just learn it from my junior,"winner don't quit,quiter don't win"
it's really meaningful...
i wanna success n be a winner,so i don't quit!
i gonna start to plan for my future le...so,i hope my friends too...
good luck my friends

2010-03-05T10:19:00.000-08:00

6/3/2010
2.19am
最近没工作了，老是呆在家里。很无聊。。。
不知道为什么，可能这就是人身吧。。。
很多不遇快的事情一至发生。。。
躲不了，只好独自面对了。。。
很想有人可以和我一起面对。
可是，我在想，种有一天他也是会离开我。
到时，我又不是一个人吗？？？
很茅盾咯。。。
有时，我都在想这是上帝的安排来考验我吗？？
不过，我想，我应该领悟到了一些东西。。。
Miss L，到现在都还在生我的气。。。
我也不懂我做错了什么，为什么每次和朋友起冲突，对不起，这三个字都是由我开口的呢？？
难道，每次都是我错吗？？我猜不透为什么。

2010-03-04T11:29:00.000-08:00

5/3/2010
3.30pm
最近都不太好。。。
很多事情发生了。。。
很多朋友都离我而去。
不知道为什么，可能这是我的命运吧。
前几天，bomba散了。以前在bomba所认识的朋友都很少见面了。。。
这不是重点，重点是。我被bomba里的人出卖。。。
我尽然被出卖了，都还不知道。
至到有一天我，某人告示我后，才发现我已经被判死刑了。
大家都以为我是那种“二五仔”。其实我什么都没做过。
被大家误会，用另类的眼光看我，甚至被朋友抛弃
这种感受，我想应该没有人会明白吧。
而当我想找人sms配我分享这不愈快的感受时。
却没有人能愿意陪我，我都在想，是我人缘不好吗？？
我不够意气吗？？我独自想了很久，是我的问题吗？？
平时，朋友要我帮忙，我从来没有说过不。
可是帮了她们，换来的是什么？？
一句谢谢吗？？有时她们连谢谢都省了。
就凭这，我对朋友不够好吗？？我不讲义气吗？？
还记得前几天，我和lyn吵架了。
因为在我很需要朋友的鼓励时，我发了信息给她。
但她都不回我，至到了第7封信息她才回我。
还说了一些刺激我的话，就“我没有了他（alwin ch'ng）我还是可以活得更好，但有没有你，我跟本不在乎”，可是到最后，所有东西都指向我。
我只想要一个真心的朋友，和我分享，很难吗？？
当我最需要朋友时，你帮了我什么？？而当你有难时，我帮了你多少，你还记得吗？？
我想你都忘了，我一至都在鼓励你。就连我累了，都等你睡了我才爬上床。
而我有难时，我都是一个人在面对。。。我也是人，也是会有感受的，下次在你说话前，请顾其它人的感受好吗？
这社会是酱现实的吗？？难道我只有在你们需要帮助时才有价值吗？？
用完后，我就什么都不是了吗？？
不好的事都接二连三的，我再次被人利用了。
是因为我为人随便还是我笨才会有酱的下场吗？？
为什么这世界都酱其怪？？好人不应该要有好报吗？？
为什么？？？为什么？？？
又有谁可以帮到我吗？？

2010-03-01T00:32:00.000-08:00

1/3/2010
4.30pm
新年刚过去了，没有红包拿咯。伤心
刚pass了车。hmm心情还不错的。
也可以准备架车咯。。。
不过在这几天，有某些事令我看到了他们的本性。
当她们有难的时候，就当你是宝。
用完后，你在她们眼里只是根朝草！
不过也还好，种看亲了她们。
这些人听着，以后有事别找我！！！

2010-02-27T05:26:00.000-08:00

26/2/2010
9.30pm
今天早上回母校看看乐队进展得怎样了。
可是，很可惜的。我们的教练将离我们而去了。
因为他有份新功作，在singapore。
我想，现在他应该在路途中了吧。
一路顺风吧，加油，mr song
可能要到明年新年才有机会见面了吧。
很悲伤的。。。加油！

2010-02-25T00:31:00.000-08:00

25/2/2010
4.oopm
hhmm 今天想试一试用华文来写blog。。。
好久没写blog了因为都在做工，没有空啊
可是为什么今天酱有空呢？？因为没做工咯
我抄老板咯，明天要去找过新的工作了。。
又要面对新的环境了，可是也还好啦。。
应为酱才能长大嘛。。
可是这几天都好闷噢，在家都快要便化石了。
又没人陪我sms，闷到~~
就连pps的戏都快看完了。。
这新年都没什么特别啦。
只不过第一次染头发咯。。
人身中第一次有酱长的头发，hehex
可是还是很短=（
目前有几个愿望啦，
第一，想长肥一点咯，就一点点罢了！
第二，向长高一点。hehex。
第三，想找到一个真心，又懂得照顾身边的女盆友咯
刚刚收到电话回来再写了。

2010-02-04T10:22:00.000-08:00

5/2/2010
2.30am
wao...just came back from bomba...
huh sometimes feels my life quite meaningfull le...

cause tonight i had safe more needy people le...
huh just now just safe a person who stuck in lift d...
he stuck inside about an hour...
and suffer from SOB...
huh just now i did run from 6th floor to top floor(25)by using stair
to search for the exactly life position...wao...
never try that before...after we knew the mangsa position...
huh we ran from 25th floor to 4th floor again...
n ran back to 8th floor again...huh damn tired now...
leg damn pain...but at last that person is successfully send to HPP
erm...i think his condition is in YELLOW ba...juz suffer from SOB
hmm...

2010-02-03T10:30:00.000-08:00

hmm...me is the one in light blue...at zi jun funeral...with his family...RIP..

2010-02-03T10:25:00.000-08:00

4/2/2010
2.30am...
huh two more days..going to p liscence test..
must pass oh!!!
haiz...this few days so tired le...
every day work...after work...sleep...wake up work gain..
damn tired...oni night ka free nia le...haiz...

hmm...juz now accidentally saw my face..on chung ling tragerdy there...
huh althought every thing is over...but still will feel sad about that...
haiz...

2010-01-25T09:31:00.000-08:00

26/01/2010
1.30am...
haiz...damn miss her...u noe...
suffering...izit god want to give me a test???
y wan me got feeling on her...n make me suffer???
y alls i meet juz a play garl???
y i got to suffer from this???
y i cant have my true love???
y they all near me juz wan benefits from me???
y???so many question...i keep asking myself...
haiz...y god wan me to keep her in my heart n make me suffer???
cant i let it go???cant i do that???
sad..

2010-01-24T10:16:00.000-08:00

25/01/2010
2.15am
haiz...so sad...she break with me le...
3 weeks...can i have a gf who reli care me???
tired on this...no comments...

2010-01-22T01:54:00.000-08:00

22/1/2010
huh juz finish work le...damn tirede now...
haiz...work so hard...oni get rm20 for my salary le..
tmr my frens...hong shen wedding le...haha
gratz...

2010-01-18T09:14:00.000-08:00

18/01/2010
01.18am...
huh this few days so busy...
erm i think ur oso knows d...that chung ling d news...
i'm part of the rescue squard...n i'm the youngest one...between those 60 guys
yesterday we had start searching them from morning untill night...
me n my frens oso kena sun burn le...becoz the sun is very hot...
n we had so many hours under the sun...
although i duno them...but i oso got that feeling...
haiz...they all are my bro's teammate...
yesterday i had tried my best to do what i can...
we had ride from macallum to queensbay...
but on the way...we saw dolphin...under penang bridge
but it's not important la...the important one is hope can help them n their family...
ok...n finally last 2 bodies was found beside the command post..
n we oso keep our boat...n so on...operasi tamat at 6pm...
proud of that to be part of the rescue squard...good night

2010-01-12T11:15:00.000-08:00

13/1/2010
3.00am...
huh today so busy le...
12.30pm jau huu came my house..
but that time i'm still sleeping...
so...just woke up by him...erm then bath n have my breakfast le...
lap to sungai ara...but just a few mins...
another friends call me le...asking me to hang out n teman my gf eat lo...
around 3 pm...i reached farlim d old town with gf le...
that time i'm still full...so just have a drinks...
after that...go n meet yoong khong to intro him that bezazz system untill 6pm...
then fetch my friend from paya terubong to gurney le...
untill 7 pm...i still couldn't have my lunch...
haizzzz....damn hungry...erm after back from gurney...
gonna meet with sean at JKKK again...huh
that time about 11.30pm le...
still haven get my lunch...wao..what a busy day...
before back home i go n buy my "supper"
n it's gonna be end of the day again...
what a busy man~~~

2010-01-11T08:45:00.000-08:00

12/01/2010
12.30am...
wao stop for about one months le...
woohoo...i'm get into another relationship again le...
erm...so far..nothing special...haha

2009-11-30T10:15:00.001-08:00

30/11/2009
00.00am..
wow...today is my birthday le...
never had a special brithday like this le...haha
i din get anty present...sob sob..
no celebration...sob sob...still need to sit for my bio test paper...
haha but nvm...at least learned something meaningfull..
haha...at least...there's about 50ppl still remember my birthday..n wish me happy birthday le...
haha quite touch d...i tot they forget me adi le..
thank you thank you...thanks
really touch le...although no present n celebration...but with your wish...it's enough to me...haha
thanks ^ ^

2009-11-28T09:11:00.000-08:00

me..n my relative...

2009-11-28T09:08:00.000-08:00

hmm...me,2 sis n my dad...

2009-11-28T09:05:00.000-08:00

my 1st birthday cake when i'm born till now

2009-11-28T09:02:00.000-08:00

29/11/2009
01.00am...
huh juz now celebrate my bday with family n relative le...
but...my mum n bro is not around le...
bro at KL n mum at turky...
so...juz wif my dad,sis,little sis n the other 5 cousin...
today,i juz had my 1st birthday cake from i'm born...till now..
1st time had birthday song n cakes...hmm...thanks...
here's some photo to share...

2009-11-27T09:11:00.000-08:00

28/11/2009
01.00am...
huh bday going reach d...it's end of the month...
haiz but that day i'm sitting for my bio paper le...
n today is my fren...ah keong d bday...
hmm...happy bday to him ba...
it's going to be my 17th years old bday le...
there's no bday cake for me at the previous 16 years le...
hmm...n yesterday my frens...juz got a road bike accident le...
wish him get well soon...

2009-11-23T06:12:00.000-08:00

23/11/2009
10.00pm..
huh 3rd day of SPM...
today just sat for math paper 1&2 le...
paper 1 objective...i get 37 correct le...
so happy...i think my math could get A+ ba..
tmr will sitting for moral le...
2h n 30 mins...
hmmm n alwin get 38 correct le...
he said thanks to me...cause i always teach him math in class...
hmm gonna continue memorize my moral le...
GAMBATEH~~~

2009-11-19T09:00:00.000-08:00

20/11/2009
1.10am...
huh finally the 2nd day of SPM is over..
i adi get used to it...not so stress le...
24papers...6 papers is down...
18more to go...i think my eng may get A ba
n BM could credit...but my sejarah worst...
i think fail le ba...hahaha nvm..
the following subject...math,moral,add math..
i aiming A le...gambateh ZAX~~~
good luck to those who sitting for SPM...
GAMBATEH!

2009-11-02T01:42:00.000-08:00

too much picture le...cant upload all here
but will post at facebook

2009-11-02T01:39:00.000-08:00

haha my fren...after prom night going coffee island

2009-11-02T01:36:00.000-08:00

on the way

2009-11-02T01:30:00.000-08:00

before going out...hehex

2009-11-02T01:27:00.000-08:00

2/11/2009
5.35pm...
yesterday so hapi le...
yesterday is our prom night...then after prom night
me n my frens go out xiao le...
1st we go coffee island..then we plan to go faces.
but its close...then we change to green house...same its close again...
finally we go to greenlane McD...till 2 pm...
after that we go choong lim house drink...
untill morning 7am oni back home le...
suddenly got a feeling that this school is nice miss teh is nice...
feel dunwanna graduate le...
gonna leave all my frens le...
hope all of us can keep intouch la...
here r some photo to share wif

2009-10-30T06:39:00.001-07:00

30/10/2009
9.45pm...
haiz today is my last day in secondary school le...
coz i gonna leave this school le...good bye...
today i hav got a type of feeling...
feel lik dunwan graduate le...now oni realise...
secondary school time quite nice le...
haiz...so fast 5 years of secondary school life is pass...its time to say goodbye
which all my secondary frens good luck n all the best in future...

tmr will be my graduation day le...
but i'm not going...y???coz of my hair ba...
i dun wan cut my hair le...haiz...
school wan us to attend graduation day wif no.3 haircut...
haiz...but the next day is prom night le...
wat if i cut number 3 wif formal wears???
so i decided not to attend graduation day ba...
sick of it...

2009-10-28T07:31:00.000-07:00

28/10/2009
10.40pm...
haiz juz cut my hair at APT le...
abo gradutaion that day gonna sit at canteen le...
haiz...dunno my hair can pass or not le...adi make it shorter d le worh.
i dunwan sit at canteen lo...
haiz...y gonna graduate le... they still wanna like that le???
cant they giv us a nice impresion to them??
asshole...

2009-10-25T06:40:00.000-07:00

26/10/2009
9.50pm...
huh yesterday overnight at balai bomba untill juz now 6 pm oni back home le..
damn tired...yesterday night oni sleep for 1 hour le...
quite tired le...gonna sleep le... good night everybody

2009-10-24T08:32:00.000-07:00

hmm this present juz now buy d...
is for c garl d...hmm okla gtg nitezz

2009-10-24T08:30:00.000-07:00

24/10/2009
11.40pm
huh juz back home from queensbay le..
hmm so tired...n later 12pm going out again le...
going balai bomba to stand by ambulance le...
hmm today that's all la..

2009-10-23T03:34:00.000-07:00

23/10/2009
6.40pm...
hmm...today at school so fun le...
keep laugh n play nia...lik SPM over d...hahahaha
but i oso see tiok some ppl d"zhen mian mu"
they outside look so nice to u...but inside doesn't lik wat u think...
they step u to show that they r high...most hate this type of ppl le...
i wan make everything be FAIR...for those who did this to my friend...
i will wait for a suitable time to revenge for my friend...
maybe to others will feel me do too much or wat..
i dun care...i feel it's rite..i will juz do it d...

2009-10-22T03:25:00.000-07:00

22/10/2009
6.30pm
huh today at school so high le...
but after school...its stress again le..
damn it...sienz...no mood to study le...
but i adi tried my best le...haiz...
damn it...sienzzzzz...
later going to bomba training again le...
haiz...

2009-10-21T06:07:00.000-07:00

21/10/2009
9.15pm
huh...today juz get the SPM exam timetable...
damn...the 1st n 2nd day will be tough...
1st day from 8.00am untill 4.30pm..
2nd day oso the same le...but after this 2 days will be a bit relax le..
but unfortuenatlly 11 november...my birthday will be sitiing for bio le..
but after 30 november there will be 2 days rest..
8 december is 2nd last paper le...
after that is 14 december le...
so hope my frens can celebrate my birthday with me at 9 december le..
hope there will be some surprise to me...
it will be my 17years old birthday...
i never have a birthday cake b4 le...
no one has bought me a birthday cake b4...
hope that day will giv me a different feeling...
so hope they all will celebrate...with me..
today damn down...dunno izit becoz of her???
hope there's someone who understand me can always besdie me...
i'm always be a caring fren to them...but when i need helps...
who can borrow me their hand???none...i had always be the 1st to help them..
but after that...that have forgotten me...
some times feel that it's not worth for me to be a kind person...
not worth for me to helps anyone...
i wan to be bad...but wat's the ending of a bad guy???
boycott by the person whos around???
huh...y can't be fair to everybody???
i always tot i put them at 1st...
they will did the same thing to me too...
but at last...i'm not...i'm juz a shit to them...
i always tot this world is fair...
i do nice to them...they will do it to me too...
but it's not lik that d...they will juz forget everything i did to them...
i'm fren to them when they nid help...izit??
fine...tired..

2009-10-20T06:05:00.000-07:00

20/10/2009
9.00pm
haiz count down to SPM oni left 29 days le...
but i haven start study yet...
i gonna aim 6 A's in my SPM
i gonna study hard!!!
although ppl look down on me...
they says if i this shit can get 6A's they can get 16A's d..
but nvm its ok...i will not juz let them look down on me...
i will prove that i can do it...
i will study hard!!!i must get wat i looking for...
i aim for Math,Add.Math,1119,English,Moral,Bio
those teachers put a lot of affort to me...
i must work hard too...i must!!!

2009-10-18T07:04:00.000-07:00

huh this python long about 14feet le..
catch by bomba sukarela bukit bendera air itam

2009-10-18T06:59:00.000-07:00

18/10/2009
10.00pm
huh today so busy le...now only reach home...
juz now at balai bomba stand by...
huh today so mani ambulance d case le..
feel so hungry now....ggggrrrrrr...
huh...n something quite happy d...
yesterday nite i n my fren go watch 18PL d movie le...
i can entre le...i hav the look of 18 years old d...hahahahax
so dun call me ah boy liau....i grew up d...hahaha

2009-10-17T12:49:00.000-07:00

i get 5 d...hehex

2009-10-17T12:48:00.000-07:00

18/10/2009
3.30 am..
huh adi midnite d oni back home...
huh juz now when Mcd wif fren le... to collect the contour glass...hehex
abit tired le...good nite

2009-10-17T12:41:00.000-07:00

17/10/2009
3.30 am...
haiz...hope my dad get well soon

2009-10-17T00:46:00.000-07:00

17/10/2009
3.43pm
haiz so fan le...
later 5pm going badminton wif bomba d fren le...
then 8.15 is pso concert...i wan go..but nobody wanna fetch me..
n juz now fren call me tonite go watch movie le...rebillion..
haiz...i shuold go where???pso or movie???
i adi hav pso concert since a few days b4 dad had bought it but he sick le...
so i hav given one to melody and another ticket dunno wanna giv it to who le...
sob sob rm40 fly away...haiz sometime feel i so wasting my dad d $$
but nvm la...at least it is not wasted...haha

2009-10-16T22:18:00.000-07:00

2009-10-15T23:45:00.000-07:00

16/10/2009
2.45pm
huh...so long din use blogspot le...
haiz...today damn moody le...
dunno y...izit becoz of her???or???
huh...nobody noe...haiz....
hope that someone can teman me sms or chat le...
haiz haiz...SPM coming le...but i haven study finish le...
haiz...still a bit sick le...
maybe yesterday too late sleep ba...
haiz...althought feel sleepy buy i not feel to sleep le..
duno y...huh later still need go stand by ambulance le...
bless god dun rain le...

ssiieeennnzzzzzzzz....

2009-08-01T23:17:00.000-07:00

2/8/2009
2.20pm
trust...

2009-08-01T10:48:00.000-07:00

2/8/2009
2.00am
haiz...feel so lonely...
insomnia...pressure...

2009-07-10T04:06:00.000-07:00

10/7/2009
7.10pm
haiz...izit i did wrong once there's no 2nd chance d???
y this world is so cruel d???
life meaningless..

2009-06-28T01:48:00.000-07:00

28/6/2009
5.45pm
haiz sunday...sienz...
i wan see da transformer 2 le...
my fren say today teman me go watch eh...
but they put me aeroplane...wat the tut!!!!!
whole day at home...so sienz...
ku no one teman me sms...
comp ku rosak cant play game...huh wan becum fossil d...
haiz...haiz...who can teman me sms or go watch transformer 2 le????

2009-06-25T08:54:00.000-07:00

26/6/2009
00:00
huh juz came back from bomba training...
damn tired d...good night..

2009-06-25T02:16:00.000-07:00

25/6/2009
5.10pm
huh today damn tired d...
hmm quite hapi that she din scare of me le...hmm gud gud
lik that be fren reli hapi...
haiz...today dad bday le...but he working at ipoh...
cant celebrate wif him...
hmm got one thing quite hapi d...
i still hav one gang of fren which veli gud d...
hmm quite hapi about that d la...haha

2009-06-21T23:51:00.000-07:00

21/6/2009
3pm...
haiz today din go schl...sick le...
haiz haiz...at home damn sienz...
fever summore...huh
wan find ppl to teman me sms...
but they ku din reply...haiz
sienz sienz...
hmm today ntg special happen la..

Bad Luck...

2009-06-16T03:41:00.000-07:00

16/6/2009
6.45pm...
haiz...today veli down...
i adi tried veli hard d...but my result...
haiz haiz...why lik that d???izit i din work hard enuf???
hmm...nvm la...next exam i will make a big different...no ones can look down on me...
hmm...izit they still luv each other d???this adi nt important to me le...
i feel that we keep our relation as a best fren is veli gud adi...
i still can hav one more gud fren to share xin shi...
hmm...n sure...hope they two can hmm...together back la...

haiz...duno y...my heart veli pain le...sumtimes pain till cnt slp..
izit cause by smoking???bt i adi changed d le...
i din smoke veli long ago d...haiz y lik that d???
haiz..

2009-06-15T05:10:00.000-07:00

15/6/2009
8.05pm
haiz today morning accident again le...
leg injured...n my laopo injured too...so sad...
haiz nt so hapi about my exam d result...
i hav studied hard...but juz a little improvment...
izit i din work hard enuf???or maybe i study hard but not smart???
hmm gonna find out da solution le...
hmm hope there's no fail in trail exam...

2009-06-14T08:23:00.000-07:00

14/6/2009
haiz...today i feel myself so bad...
punteh everybody go out hapi hapi eh...
but i knew sumthing...haiz then make till everybody pun nt hapi ki...
sorry chan khye,may,xin yi,jia yi,nita...
sorry le...make till ur pun not hapi...
but finally i think open d...
i face the truth d...she n him...hmm...should be pair d...
but...hmm...nvm la...i di it le...hmm
n today i juz noe tsu huey regret about that time kik me from sl
but i wan tell her...she hav did it well...
that time i reli so stupid...dun noe think...
hmm...n do so much bad thing...
sorry tsu huey,sk,vh,hk...
hmm n i din hate ur very long d...juz ur dunnoe le...
n what i hav did to band although ur cannot see...
but nvm la...haha i hav teached jean the way to play her solo part
so that the concert is so succesful...n those skill can giv to them..
hmm...hope they can play better than me la...good luck~

2009-06-13T13:00:00.000-07:00

13/6/2009
midnight 4 o'clock
haiz...today is my laz day at band d..
we having a concert at school hall...
quite succesful d...n my solo...hmm most ppl oso giv me good d comment
but i dunoe is real or not...coz i feel myself can do more than that...
hmm...so sad...i wan the band...ONE BAND ONE DREAM...
those hapi times...sad...or watever i had taste at band...
the band grow me up...inside band...i learns thing from what i have did...
i have did something veli bad...hmm...but finally i learn a lesson from that...
hmm...i found that...i'm not always the failure...
at least tonight i hav did it...plays solo in front of my frens...my family..
whole school...in front of 800++ppl...hmm...
quite surprise about that...i have did it which i hav never done b4...
thanks this band...thanks everybody...miss ur so much...
hmm...so miss ur...cnt sleep...insomnia...hmm...
i hav shows another part of me...to my family...
i'm not always lose my bro...really love this band...
hmm...juz now quite touch d...everybody crying...
but i don't...coz i noe...i hav grown up...even tears gonna drop...
chchs military band the best...
I SAY CHUNG HWA U SAY GOOD
CHUNG HWA GOOD
CHUNG HWA GOOD
CHUNG HWA GOOD GOOD GOOD!!!
thanks for beautify part of my life...
thanks for giving me such a nice unforgatable memory!!!
although we form 5 hav leave the band...
but others hav to keep move on...without us...
gambateh chchs military band...let's rock...

2009-04-27T05:13:00.000-07:00

27/4/2009
8:10pm...
woohoo...our band hav wont da champion le...
hehex so surprise abt that...we did it...
now our next target is 13Th june...our concert...
maybe laz time i hav did sumthing wrong...
i should support wif them...but i din...
feel lik a bit regret le...so lik da band le...
proud to be part of chung hwa confucian military band...
when we hear da news that we r the champion...
every one has gone crazy...hahahaha
but when she come back...my mood hav down again...
haiz whole day so down...so miss her...
haiz...wat can i do???haiz...but nvm la...it's reli a gratz job to those high pose
thanks~n finally we did it

2009-04-26T01:30:00.000-07:00

26/4/2009
4.30pm...
haiz...i'm rejected again...
haiz...so hate da alone d feel...juz lik lost in a desert...no hope...undesirable...

00:00midnight
i hav went to pantai keracut...for midnight trecking...
n overnight at seaside...so that i cn nt to think abt that...cn free my heart...
but too bad...da security block us from going up to the mountain...
so we hav to change da plan...y keep wan me suffer le???
i try to make myself tired...y cnt le???
the god playing me???
i surrender le...i so suffer le...
da feeling reli hard...reli pain...
wat should i do???
i noe i muz let go le...
but i cn ma???i cnt...i wait for her for 8months d...
suffer so much oni get her...but y its wan happen to me???
i dnwn d...i cnt le...

2009-04-22T06:30:00.000-07:00

22/4/2009
9.30pm
haiz...y this world is lik tat d???
when they nid help they oni find me...
no nid help d wat is me to them???
still a fren arh???
i think i too "tian chen"d maybe i should not put them at first...
when i not happy i would lik to share wif them...but wat did they did to me???
they nt happy tiok can talk wif me badly...wat how i treat them...how i treat my friends...
i always care about them...care about their feeling...but did they care about my feels???
who care???no ones......rite???
wat is best friend???when nid help oni got best friend???
i duno...to me every friend to me oso my best friend...also important to me...
but i dunoe wat means best friend to them...even friends...
i most hate those person who always lik tat...i hate person who treat me lik tat...
Miss N lik tat...now Miss Y also lik tat....
maybe i too frenly or treat them too nice d...
she said:she wont did to me lik wat Miss N did d...
but now she is doing this...fine...best friend...juz a name ba i think...
they got really put me at first meh???nop...i think...but i did...
i know when they down...i sms wif them... giv them support...
but when i down...wat they did to me...
one keep think of Mr.A...another...emo...no idea...haiz...
wat should i do now le???
BEST FRIEND tis word should keep in my dictionary???or juz forget about it???
who can tell me???who can giv me the answer???
she said she veli tired...she dunwan luan wif me...
but i oso sick arh...i get fever too le...but who knows???
no ones......wat should i do le???

2009-04-18T07:19:00.000-07:00

18/4/2009
10.20pm
haiz this few days she keep appear in my mind...
how to forget a ppl???
forget her got so hard ma???
haiz today so unhappy le...so down...
coz i now oni encounter something...
that stuff...haiz...make me get down...down...
i must forget her...i can do it d...
the ppl around me also ask me to forget her d...
still rmb that laz time...we cry together...laugh together...
when she down i talk phone wif her for whole nite...
untill fall as sleep...but now...everything hav change...
i gonna change too...

2009-04-16T04:04:00.000-07:00

16/4/2009
haiz...i so miss her le...so suffer now...
thinking of sms her but scare that she feel me "fan"
haiz...wat should i do???
who can tell me wat should i do???
haiz haiz...should i sms her ma??
haiz...so fan le now...

2009-04-15T04:49:00.000-07:00

15/4/2009
2.00pm...she sms me asking me y i dun wan perform le...
izit she so "guan xin"me???
i oso dunnoe le...so suffer le...
wat should i do now???
i feel so luan le...
they keep asking me y dunwan perform...
haiz...i oso dunno le...
i juz hope that i nt at this world...
8.00pm...haiz this few days no on9 le...
dunno y this few days keep think of her le...
laz time that feels come back d...
y so hard to forget her le???
insomnia...yesterday 2am oni can sleep le...
although i very tired d...but cant sleep le...
my heart feel so "luan"so many thing keep appear...
haiz...she reli so important to me???
i oso dunnoe le...

2009-04-12T00:03:00.000-07:00

12/4/2009
3pm...hhmm i think nw my fren having operation d ba...
which him gud luck la...haha
juz now see tiok her again le...when she is infront of me...
i tiok like ...err...treat lik din see tiok her...bt when she go back d...
my heart veli luan le...dunno y...
juz nw sms her le...bt i still duno she still nid me this fren or nt...
haiz haiz...today so down le...dunno y...haiz haiz

2009-04-11T03:13:00.000-07:00

11/4/2009
6.15pm...hhmm...juz came back from visting my frens...
whos mate an accident yesterday...
dunnoe y today i keep think of her le...
think that we together pass eh time...
quite happy d...bt nw its all different d...
haiz...thinking that...my 1st kiss...
haiz haiz haiz...its all over...
bt i dun lik b4 so hurt le...
compared to laz time...i would gonna gone crazy...
but now...hhmm...better liau...hehex...
wish da fren whos in da hospital eh get well soon la...
hhmm...today eh mood...normal normal lik that lo...
dunnoe how to say...

2009-04-10T04:29:00.000-07:00

10/4/2009
7.30pm...hhmm...today eh mood
still not bad la...haha
today i hav 2 fren birthday le...
happy birthday to them ba...hahaha
juz nw 8am take da gradute used d photo le...
feel so happy...no y...i think gonna graduate le so happy ba...
having a long hair soon le...hehex
hmm...today nthing special happen la...
bt i saw her msn d pm there written "suan suan de ku ku de"
hhmm...i hav no idea about wat's the prpose she write this la..
maybe becoz of me this fren?or another guy whos in her heart???
no idea...bt its nt important to me le...hahaha...
bt i a bit regret that absent da band practice le...
haiz haiz...
bt...still not bad la... haha

flash back

2009-04-09T02:42:00.000-07:00

still rmb that day she ask for break...
i cnt sleep for whole nite...tat day...
i juz sit there for whole nite wif blank minded...
sumtime i had been too tired n fall sleep...
bt when i sleep...my mind keep thinking of her...
dream that she said sorry to me...n wake up...
it's all over...a dream...a real dream...

9/4/2009
6 pm...duno y today so down...
may be becoz of her ba...
during reses time...we meet each other...
n i juz walk away...bt after that...
i feel myself so bad...
i noe i'm a soft-hearted person...
at da moment...mani thing keep appear on my mind...
what should i do now??other than juz waiting...
bt we still can be friend???
she adi dun nid me this friend le i think...
they said me a bit chong dong le...
but that time i oso dunno wat should i do le...

other than those not happy d thing...
sure got something is happy geh...
a best fren finally think open le...^ ^
let go d...hhmm...a good news oso la...haha
so gam dong nia...hahahaha
but...but
wat about myself???
i think open d...bt i still gt feel on her???i oso nt sure...
bt i veli sure that da feel is not so strong le...
so confuse...confuse...but i think i can do it oso d...
i can "fan xia" d...hahaha

2009-04-08T04:13:00.000-07:00

7/4/09---
6pm...i adi cant tahan her this kind of attitude d
whats wrong betwen me and her???
why she will suddenly like changed...the way she treat me...
i treat her as my close friend but she treat me what???a friend???
she always treat her friends like that d??nop...i think just me...so,i think she dont treat me as friend
so,i sms her n asking her what happen to her...
why she suddenly treat me so bad...
then i ask her again"do u know this freinship is going worst d?"
but she replied"i duno lo"from her "yu qi"i can know that
she don't need me...this friend adi...
fine...since she is this kind of person...i still remember that
last time when she is down i always support her...
besides her...helping her...but today...
she treat me in such a bad way...but still she rmb that guy whos always beside her??
"yuan lai"this world is like that d...sometimes it can be very cruel...

2weeks after 23/2/09-10.52---the "ok"moment...
she ask for "break"why???i duno...
that day,my sis in hospital le...becoz of food poisonous...
n my mum "guai"me...at the same time she juz want "li kai" me...
when i'm down she tell me this somemore...
how can i accept???n i was begging her...plz dun go...plz
but she juz replied me CNT...izit this world so cruel???n it's nt finish yet...
n the day 2 i have to sit for exam...during the exam...
i totally cant focus at all...
n i get 0 for my add math,7 sejarah,14 BM,17 chemi,23 fizik,28 bio30 bc,50 math,60 BI
huh...i nvr got such a bad result before...
i'm hited...i hav lose all...n oni her bt oso my family...my result...
a few day more...bad thing happened again...
this time...my dad in hospital...
my parents argue...n my mum inside da room for half a day...
what else can i do???haiz...
izit this world so cruel???
n i swear to myself...i wnt lose the 1st thing i can do
i win myself...i swear to myself...i muz let go le...
so...we both be a closed frenz...

whats going on

"是命运改变了我，还是我改变了命运。。。我现在找到了答案，我要靠我的双手来改变我的命运"这可不是出至哪个高人的哦，是我所经历过而找到的答案。。=）

Bad Luck...

flash back

"是命运改变了我，还是我改变了命运。。。我现在找到了答案，我要靠我的双手来改变我的命运"
这可不是出至哪个高人的哦，是我所经历过而找到的答案。。=）